Oh my Gosh. Why is it so frustrating to watch Gossip Girl?! Why why why cant Chuck be with Blair forever happily ever after? Urgh. I hate it that they are not together for stupid reasons. Haha ok Im just an overly engrossed fan of the show. I love Chuck so much for his character but then again its merely a show, no less than an inaccurate reflection of reality.

Chuck was talking about grand gestures. Ones that you would be embarrassed about doing it or perhaps afraid to know how others may react but you know that you have to do it lest you would have to live to only regret. Personally I have not done any grand gestures I suppose. I don't even dare to confess to my crush whom I have liked for many many months. And he had to dig the information out of me. What the hell.

There is possibly one event which I can quote. I think I am like Chuck at a certain point in my life. One who wishes for the person he loves to be happy, and would do anything for that special someone. However grand the gesture was, what comes after is the consequence that I had to face for the rest of my life. That, that special someone will never ever reciprocate my feelings in return. Well, depressing I know but at least I can say I have not let myself down. And he will always remain as someone special, in a different way. :)



For Chuck Bass.

Chinese New Year is round the corner! With 2 days apart, I would like to list down my Chinese New Year resolutions and am determined to fulfill them.

1) To not sleep in lectures ever again, buy coffee, pinch yourself, eat many sweets, do anything but to fall asleep ever again.

2) To be a better daughter. I dont know how would you define 'better', but to me I would just try to put in more effort to spend quality time with my family. And whenever a conflict arise, the bestest that I can do is to shut my mouth up.

3) To put in my best for every Canoe Polo trainings. Nothing more to add.

4) To not be the unreasonable one in the relationship. I havent been such a perfect gf. I will try to not be so unreasonable. And not think so much.

5) To study as hard as last semester and NEVER to lose hope. As the semester just began, I have began to lose faith as the modules are dry and I dont really have much of a group-mate-choice for 2 of my modules for projects. God please bless me.

Alright, I have listed 5 resolutions. I would think that this is tough enough for the year. Very tough. But nonetheless, I will try my best cause I dont want my family, bf or teammates, coach to lose faith in me. Turning 21 this year made me realised that I have grown up. An adult, no more I do this cause I feel like doing so anymore. This realization may have come late, but as the saying goes, better late than never. :)

Happy Chinese New Year to all.

For the fire crackers and the red stuffs.

Have been browsing through Facebook and got reminded of the times I had in Junior College. Hahaha thought of all the weird, happy, unhappy and exciting things that happened. Things which affected me so so soso much then seem so insignificant upon reflection. It is as though those things didnt happen at all. Lol funny how life is made up of ups and downs. Cant help but to imagine if I were to look back to this very moment maybe sometime in 2015, what would be the moments that I miss. Will Facebook still be the in-thing? Or will it de-popularize like Friendster? Hahaha these random thoughts must have been occuring cause I am actually quite free now. School has just started for me and everything is still quite relax. 

Today sucked big time. A super lousy day that drove me to the depths of depression and the worse thing is it was for the stupidest and most irrational reason ever. I feel like giving myself a tight slap for doing that and for being so childish. But I cant help it. GRRRRRRR. Ok I shall not be a baby and whine over it. Running should do the airing for me. Run it allllllllll out.

I hate myself :(


For a Frown,

Holidays are getting unproductive for me. Watching videos, eating, training for Stand Chart run, playing The Sims 2 and accompanying my boyfriend :) Soon training for Canoe Polo will be starting soon. Ahhhhh~ I really hope that I can get used to training again like I did. Stand Chart in 3 days. THREE DAYS. Omg I totally dont know what to expect. I just gotta pray that P and I can complete it in two whole pieces. :D

Attempted to cook green bean soup today but I think it kinda failed. Hahaha I think I added too much sago and too little water until it became like niam niam one. Haha was kinda disappointed when I saw it. But it tasted not bad!!! I can promise!!! Hahaha shall attempt other kinds of desserts soon, like barley, agar agar etc. :)

P will end his exams tmr. Hopes his mood will get better after. Things must be going on so tough on him but yet there is so little things I can do because he doesn't like people "consoling" him. -.- Makes me so frustrated and vexed sometimes. :/

For First Times.

I have this realization that maybe after all we're not that strong. As precious as life is, death is imminent. Despite the existence of doctors and all those chemicals which we hope would possibly heal all of our ailments, i guess there comes a point in time when even the body wants to give up trying cause it hurts too much. So much that maybe they are already dead on the inside.

Glee is getting me hooked to it. Omg what a time, during this critical period. I have already downloaded Season 2. I CANT WAIT TO WATCH IT! Haha, first paper wasn't fantastic but I hope I can scrap off with a B- at least. I can't afford another C+.