张栋梁 - 低调 作词:管启源 作曲:柯贵民

嬉笑 打闹 拥抱 留下了那么多开心合照
互相取暖依靠 熬过了最低潮 一起生活
也一起埋怨过 走过最好与最糟
我在心里想的不用说明 你知道
晨昏日夜颠倒 这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑 没有人去打扫 感情很微妙
再多付出也好 再多关心都徒劳
爱从来就没有固定的轨道 它最后停在哪里谁知道
我的难过是如此低调 因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角 努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报 朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调
傻子才会哭闹 就算你发现也好
我想你一定会选择 假装不知道

只怕我自己的掩饰不够好


Damn nice song. :)

Taking Chances by Celine Dion :)

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

Hello, the song above was recommended by Mr Insipid, who is always so nice to recommend nice songs to me, spamming me youtube urls etc. Haha thank you :) I like the lyrics of the song. The song itself is nice too, worth listening. Haha.

Have been heading to school to study everyday. Initially it was kinda unproductive because will talk a little and even play with zy's itouch. Haha unforgettable moments with Tap Tap and Wheel Of Fortune, damn nice games which are unfortunately distracting like mad. Haha Im absolutely guilty of not focussing. Many reasons to not focus but am improving recently. Like at least I know how to focus a little bit more these days. I enjoy studying with friends, at least you know that you arent alone :) Hopefully study sessions get more productive next week because its the last week before the big As. I can study, I can mug, I cant promise anything though. Not even promising myself of any decent grades that Im hoping to get. Just wish to get something decent which would settle my parents. At least something not as terrible as prelims will do. Oh well, no point hoping or wishing, time will tell. :/

I realised something recently, and its killing me. Haha not something huge but something I would really like to know because its making someone else very unhappy. I really hope everything turns out fine, it'll be fine eventually. I know it :) Just hope for the best to happen. I mean its not like this kind of things happen everyday, its very rare for someone to be so sure of something. I hope he'll go for it, and dont be afraid of failing. Because you never know til you try, especially for something which you would hold so dearly to you. Hahaha okay, this entire paragraph aint making any sense alrdy, like my history essays. Urgh. Haha shall write more next time when I've more time. Geez :D












"Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world"

It's okay,
Baby, just go for it.

Hello :)

Had farewell assembly last friday, pretty cool with the funny performances and of course the most exciting part was the prize presentation (not sarcastic i swear) hahaha. Cant believe I just graduated from AJC. PAE times felt so near, too near, 3408. I rmbed that time when I was depressed to the max when I first knew that 3408 is going to go separate ways. Like different classes and different subject combinations. I really liked that class because we are kinda happening. Hanging out after school was kinda like a normal thing, cause I think it was PAE that's why. Haha went bowling and movies, class lunches at the canteen etc. I really missed 3408, especially during the period of the start of JAE. My new class was 3708, really didnt know what it had in store for me.

Maybe it's the fact that i dislike changes. I love being in my comfort zone all the time. After making great friendships in a class, I was probably afraid, and maybe tired of going through the same old process of making friends. When everything is so superficial initially. That's what made me miss 3408. Not knowing what to expect in 3708 just made me feel even more !!! Haha cant really find a word to describe it. It's not a bad feeling nor issit a good feeling. Just !!! Being in 3708 made me undergo many changes. Having to adapt to all sorts of things. First was to make friends with the people there. Second was having to WORK with them, i.e PW.

I shall skip the long and draggy process of probably 1 year plus and FLASH FORWARD to today. Hahaha. I <3 my class alot. Nope it's not exaggeration nor issit like a superficial comment. Call me gullible or naive, I dont care. For the main reason as to why I love this class so much is The People. I love everyone in the class. They're just so nice. Too nice to be true. All the girls and boys. I seriously doubt that you can ever find another class with people so nice and true in it. Every single one. I dont think I can ever find another person in the entire world to replace any of them. They just got the personalities.

Guys
Kendrick - Technical Head, GP class sitting partner, PAE 3408 classmate and scandal -_-
Wei Zhong - Neutral Friend (HAHA), Retarded sometimes, Ex GP Rep, Man Utd Fan
Zhan yee - Friend who lives in Seng Kang also, Council dude, Man Utd Fan
Alvin Ang Shi Hao - My Ex-PW mate, Soccer dude, Liverpool Fan

Girls
Jamie Ng Wei Xuan - PAE 3408 classmate, PE Rep, Germanholic ;D, NNNNNNehnineh, NNNNLolli, one word = crazy shit. Hahaha XD

Toh Min Shurlene - PAE 3408 classmate, Math Rep, Idol Lolli and FT! Man Utd Fan!

Lee Ying Rong - DRONG DRONG! used to like FJ, MATH GOD - MAAA~, PHYSICS GOD - PAAAA~, TQ!

Lynette Yeo - Nette Yeo! Nets Fats! :) TP! WOOTS, BRUSHHH, Second MATHA STEWARD :D

Jovita Wong - GIRLFRIEND <3, BOBIBA BONG! Super exaggerated girl :D

Cheah Xinni - GP Rrrrrrep, Dancer! Fair, skinny, SMART, ELITE :)

Moltakran Thangsereekul - Thai friend! SMART, ELITE :)

Farhanah - PAE 3408 friend, ENTHU GUY'S FRIEND :D


Haha yup 13 of us. :D



<3s

Hello. Its Friday yet again. Seems like I like to post on Fridays, maybe cause its one of the slackest day since theres no school the next day. Anyway, nothing exciting going on right now. Hmm probably saddening, largely. Im feeling very discouraged again. I think this is probably one of the worst situations in my entire schooling life :) besides the year in secondary school where I failed my English. Haha. Maybe it might be good for me. Like a wake up call. Either way it just sucks in the short term. Gotta think of a master plan to tell my parents about it. Have been trying very hard to avoid this topic recently. Anyhow, sometimes, we cant run away forever. Unimaginable reactions. Think I gotta find a shelter for myself, somewhere to hide. Maybe underneath my bed. (If only that helps) The only thing that I can do now is probably to study harder. Study study study. Boring. Cant wait for this to be over. Ugh I hate studying. Now, maybe thats the reason for my grades. Haha but thats a fact nobody could change. I guess my grades do matter to me after all, my numbness is probably just a delusion, for me to feel no thing.

Im feeling a little more lousy and disgusted by the fact that I actually did study for the subject, especially. If only I didnt, at least that might make up to an excuse in itself. But I've got nothing/no one to blame for my results right now except myself. My stupidity and inability to live up to the expectations of the meritocratic society today. I know I shouldn't linger in self-pity and not do no shit. I'll study harder I promised. The thing is, what if it still isn't enough? My parents have been encouraging enough to remind me constantly that I HAVE to get to University, it's not a choice now. It's like a compulsory thing. If not, I'll just have to die probably? Great. Now my life depends on the kind of results Im getting. Wonderful life, right.

I've always wonder. Is University the ONLY route to survival in today's world? Comment. Hahaha sounds like a GP essay question. Heck it. I totally disagree. Okay probably in Singapore, that might be true. But what about those who didnt? Are they on the verge of breaking down now? Are they dying just because they didnt get into University? Those shop keepers, waitresses, stall holders and assistants that I see in the public do not seem to face such issues. Okay, it might be true that they would not be able to enjoy the kind of luxurious lifestyle. Then, just heck it lah! Is being luxurious so important? Is having money so important? If you dont have the ability, then just face reality and be a normal person. Im just seriously glad that Im surviving now. I dont really ask for more than food, water, shelter. Thats it. Thats all I need. I dont need a freaking University Cert which is screwing the hell outta me right now. Though I might not depend on it to LIVE, it is undeniable that I want it. Alright, so I'll just do my best and get what I want. And if I cant do it for who knows why, screw my stupidity then. I'll just live a happy, stupid life and get a simple job. At least, in that way, I'm happy :(










In serious need of:
1) Plan to make myself happy
2) Plan to announce results to parents
3) Plan to hide after announcement
4) Sleep
5) You :D

Hey there!

Haha yup it's the weekends, yet again. Dont think there are any plans, gonna rot at home once again. I really wanted to catch The Ugly Truth. Haha somehow. Guess I'll most probably go catch it by myself. Something I've never done in my life. It can be a fulfilling experience I guess. Haha had a surprise today, Lynette and Ying Rong went to buy a snail snail soft toy for me. Erm I liked it alot? Yup, not for the fact that they gave me something but for the fact that they even thought about me. :) Thank you Lynette and Ying Rong. Really appreciated it. Owe yall tori-q and tako pachi lah okay! Haha. (Private bet)

Played Badminton with classmates after school (Jamie, Shurlene, Yr, Lyn, Jovi and Xin Niang) today because it ended early, like 1015. Haha though the shortened time-table was supposed to allow us to study more, it seems as though it aint working, for now. Probably we'll all start going crazy after we receive our results. Though im really nervous about getting back my results. I aint very bothered by them. Something is seriously very wrong with me. And I dont know why my habit of falling asleep in class and even at home now, is coming back. Hate this feeling. I dont like to be in a daze the whole day. It just makes me waste my life further. Ugh.

Read New Moon the whole day today. Very nice. I cant stop reading it. I just have to know what happens next. Im looking forward to the part where Bella and Edward reunites. Though I really like Jacob's role. Like the Sun in Bella's life. One which makes her happy :) Think Im gonna finish it soon. Haha. Oh anyway there's a blood donation thingy around my house. Maybe I'll go for it.










I couldn't imagine anything in the world that there was left to be afraid of,
not physically at least.

One of the few advantages of losing everything.

Bella Swan, New Moon.

And so prelims are over. What now. Haha.
Think I'd be slacking for the whole of today.
Really wanna watch Twilight.
Gotta borrow the DVD or something.
Off to relaxation time then! :)







Mostly I dream about being with you forever.


Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue.

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything.
Im just trying to be happy.
Hmmmm.